Perfect

No. 5, 1948, by Jackson Pollock

You see that painting up there? Get what it means? Well, i guess someone has to explain it to me if they do, because i sure as heck don't. It just seems like a lot of random splashes on a giant canvas to me. In fact, i don't think i get abstract art in general, because i'm a person that's so rooted in logic and reason. You know what's even more mindblowing? That painting above, sold for about $140 million, which makes it the second-most expensive painting in the world.

That being said, being a perfectionist is no easy task.

Being a perfectionist is twice as insane, crazy and difficult...when you work in the creative industry.

I guess when you've been evaluated your whole life through results based on numbers and the amount of As you get, it's a hard habit to let go. Because you really can't measure creativeness. You can't say for sure whether this work is top-notch or not, because art can be so abstract sometimes, the 'normal' conventions for it just fly out of the window. Just like that painting up there.

I think that's basically what i'm struggling with right now. I mean, i can influence the quality of my work up to a certain degree. In terms of aesthetics however...that's totally out of my control. How do you judge whether this is good or bad, better or worse? The answer is...you can't. Because sometimes beauty just lies in the eye of the beholder, and everybody has their own perception of what beauty is.

In my case...i've been conditioned to think that if more people approve of my work, the better it is. Or if i get a score that's above-average, that somehow confirms the fact that it's good enough.

The point is: i KNOW that you can't put a value on something based on what people think or the ratings people give it. Cause everybody will have their own point of views and opinions, plus everybody's different. I just have to come to terms with that because i somehow feel justified when someone likes my work, because, well, the majority wants to be liked, accepted and approved.

Knowing it and accepting it are two different things though.

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