Hospitals

I've never liked hospitals.

I mean, i know that they're supposed to be a place of healing and caring for other people, and i know that doctors & nurses are always trying their best to treat the patients and try and make them comfortable, but somehow...i don't know. There's just this uneasy feeling that i get when i step into the hospital environment.

I'd keep thinking of death and sickness and illness. I don't know why but i just automatically associate that with hospitals. It's not a healthy mindset, i know. I can't shake it off though....it's supposed to be a good place but i keep thinking about the negative side of it. I guess it's just my pessimist side dominating.

Every time i have to accompany someone to the hospital, usually my grandma, i get this feeling that everything is contaminated (although they're probably sterilized cleaner than anything i have at home). Not only that, i'd feel as if i'm contaminated as well, and i'd have to scrub thoroughly when i go home.

I just Googled 'Nosocomephobia', which is the fear of hospitals. I don't think i have something as serious as that, but rather a mild anxiety. Anyway, maybe i'd think otherwise when i'm lying on my deathbed and the doctors are frantically trying to save me.


Just some thought when i was at a hospital today,
Wenzes